14:16 saturday 5th october,
I have a banging head, and feel like sh*t.   makes me wonder why i would put myself through it every evening.  saying that if you drink everyday then the poison 'so to speak' is still in your system and doesn't have an effect 'hangover' the following day.

I'm wondering now if i will drink tonight ?

I had looked into AA, but read they talk about god etc, and that really isn't my thing.
there doesn't appear to be any forums  or chat type things online, where you can received support from
other people like myself.

So im pottering in the greenhouse, arranging the tortoise house with Buddy's help (cat).
Going to make Quiche, then head off to the gym a bit later on after i've had a healthy snack.

Im hoping the outcome of this online diary will help me realise the damage i am doing to myself.
Its kinda like self harming i guess ! 'not good' !!

Maybe my thoughts will one day be read by others in the same/similar situation, and some how helps others to quit she sh*t.